The fact that two months has already gone by amazes me. Both because it's gone by in a blink of an eye, but also because it feels like he's always been here. The time before Benjamin is hazy, and I wonder if he was always waiting in the wings. That he doesn't share our memories of times gone by seems so strange to me.
He's amazing. I know I'm biased as his mother, but he is so darn cute. But, more than that, he's such a sweet little babe. He's so chilled out and he spend so much time smiling every day. His smiles are so pure and full of joy, and I can't decide whether I love it more when they're directed at me or when he smiles at someone else so they can see just how adorable and wonderful he is. I want to capture everything about him, from his almost constant hunger to his little snores, from his fluffy hair to the way he stretches when you pick him up after a nap (he makes a face like a little turtle, and it melts my heart). He's so inquisitive and loves to look out at the world, whether we're on a walk or just sat in the house. He also already loves the TV, which probably makes us terrible parents but I think it's all the lights and movement that catches his eye. He's also so *long* - he's already grown out of his 0-3 month onesies purely because his toes have already reached the end.
It also amazes me how happy I am right now.I was so miserable when I was pregnant, and so many people warn you about how difficult the newborn days are that I was braced for the worst. But we have been so, so lucky with how chilled out and easygoing Ben has been. He is already sleeping longer at night, and he settles easily. Basically, if he's not hungry then he's happy! (Same). I feel so much more myself now that I have come out of the other side of pregnancy and breastfeeding, and the difference is incredible. I'm able to do so much more now, even whilst juggling a tiny baby; I'm not quite at my pre-pregnancy levels but I was so tired and unmotivated when pregnant, which just isn't me. Plus, I have this adorable little munchkin to cuddle all day - and who wouldn't be happy with that?