The Third Trimester: Thoughts on Growing a Person

The Third Trimester // Amy Elizabeth

When I first scheduled in to write this post, I thought that it would be relatively upbeat compared to my previous pregnancy updates. I’ve made no secret of the fact that I have not been enjoying pregnancy at all, but the second trimester hasn’t been nearly as bad as the first (just like everyone tells you). I know plenty of people who have had a rougher time of it than me, so I’m sure this will elicit some eye-rolls, but I have really struggled with the tiredness, the nausea (thankfully past now), the aches and pains and all of the associated nonsense that comes along with pregnancy. I know it’s supposed to be magical when the baby kicks, and sometimes it is, but mostly it just hurts. I thought I was getting on top of everything; we’d ordered the pram and the nursery furniture, which definitely made everything feel so exciting, but I definitely hit a wall last Monday. In the last week I’ve had more than one cry over the fact that everything I’m feeling is an almost permanent state for the next three months, and could even get worse. 

Maybe I’m hormonal, or maybe it just sucks to be pregnant (or maybe a bit of both). I hate that it hurts every time I go to get out of bed. I hate that I can’t stretch enough to put my towel on the hook of the back of the door. I hate that I get out of breath if I walk up the stairs too quickly. I hate having heartburn. I hate that walking into town to get some lunch now feels like an ordeal, complete with stitch-like pains across my bump. I hate that it’s almost impossible to get comfy, but that turning over or adjusting position when I’m sitting or lying down is a mission in itself. I hate having almost nothing to wear. And this baby still needs to get at least twice as big as he is now… I also feel a bit useless in my current state, and whilst it seems a nice idea to have people doing stuff for you, I’m not very good at sitting to the side and letting everyone else get on with things. I am simultaneously worried about leaving work and counting down the days; I’m worried they won’t cope without me, and maybe more worried that they will cope too well and won’t want me back. It’s all just a bit much. Slowing down is *hard* and I go from being grateful that I have time off at weekends to nap and recuperate to feeling guilty for not making the most of this time. 

Can I confess something to you, dear Internet? I also sometimes still have doubts about becoming a parent – even now, when there are less than 100 days to go until this little babe is with us. I catch myself wondering whether this whole baby thing was such a great idea, when we could have been swanning off to exotic locations, or visiting friends, or working on exciting projects, or any of those many other things that feel like they’re slipping away at a rate of knots. This isn’t a logical thought, since those things are not closed off to us in any way even when we become parents, but I can’t help but wonder if I’m *really* ready to saddle my whole life to a tiny being who relies on me (on us) for everything. Before I was pregnant, I was adamant that was what I wanted for my life, but as the reality draws closer, the doubts creep in. Don’t get me wrong, I already love this little baby and my daydreams are filled with all of the fun we’ll all have as a family, but just sometimes I am struck by the reality of this parenting lark and suddenly my carefree life where I’m only truly responsible for myself seems all that more appealing. Does that make me a bad mother already? I hope not as I’ve barely even started yet. 

I’m also getting to the point of dreading the whole ‘birth’ thing. For someone who really struggles when it comes to all things medical, I’ve been surprisingly calm about the actual birth part until now. Whether it’s blind delusion, or all of the very calming yoga classes I’ve been going to, I was sure I’d have it in hand. I wasn’t looking forward to it, exactly, but it felt entirely manageable the more I read about it. I had visions of being super calm and earth mother-ish at home, lighting candles and letting my body do all the work. The closer it gets, the more I feel like I was kidding myself that such a thing is even possible; although we’re in the process of planning a home birth, the stats suggest that most first time mothers end up in hospital regardless of their best laid plans. I know there’s really no way to know what’s going to happen, and for a control freak like me, that’s pretty scary – especially when it could end up with me in exactly the place I *least* want to spend any time. Whilst I’m pragmatic that medical intervention may be necessary, and I’m not going to resist that, I am still holding on to a little bit of hope that I might be able to avoid it and stay home. I am trying to surround myself with positive birth stories, rather than accidentally falling down comment threads with too many horrific details – whilst forewarned can sometimes mean forearmed, I’m not sure that’s the case for me right now. 

On the positive side (just so this doesn’t become a total sob-fest), I have been thinking lots about what our little bubba will be like. It’s exciting that he’s entirely a mystery to us right now, but soon we’ll know him better than we know almost anyone else on earth. I’m pretty sure he’ll be fair with blue eyes, if genetics are anything to go by (and I am reliably informed they are) but other than that? There’s just no way of telling. I’m impatient to meet him (and dress him in adorable little outfits), so I’m trying to focus on that feeling, rather than anything else – which is easier said than done when he’s giving me a good kicking… 

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On Being the Eldest Child

[Photo by Jenn Richardson]

Unsurprisingly, I think a lot about what our little baby will be like, and what his life might be like. I am boundlessly curious about the future, and an endless planner (even when I know there can be no such thing as planning for the future, not really). If we are lucky, he will be the eldest brother to a sibling or two, which is something I’ve been also thinking about a lot. I recently listened to the Dear Sugar episode on sibling rivalry, and a few comments they made really gave me pause for thought. 

I have always thought of myself as the quintessential eldest child; I have a brother who is younger than me by 2 years and a sister who is younger by 7. I don’t know if it is scientifically proven, but myth suggests that birth order can shape your personality, with eldest children tending to be high achieving, perfectionist Type As who have trouble admitting when they’re wrong or accepting criticism. Um… so far, so very, very me. 

With great power comes great responsibility, of course, because as the eldest child you are also cast into a surrogate parenting role. I’ve felt that very strongly in more recent years; with my family no longer the tidy unit it once was, I do feel more of a responsibility towards my siblings, to look after and look out for them (not that they really need it so much, they are adults after all). I remember speaking with a friend who is another eldest child about this very idea; when it comes to family trouble, it can sometimes feel as though your worry is doubled as the eldest, as not only are you struggling with the situation yourself, but also perhaps shouldering a greater part of the burden. I remember quite clearly not crying at my grandmother’s funeral; not because I wasn’t incredibly sad, but because I had one sibling sobbing on each shoulder and *someone* in that situation has to be the non-cryer. 

This is quite literally the latest photo I have with my siblings (and our hangers on) and it’s maybe 3 years old?! Note to self: take more photos. 

It is interesting how much stock we put into friendships and romantic relationships in comparison to those we have with our siblings (I’m sure the breadth of articles on the Internet about the former two would eclipse the latter by far) when in fact our sibling relationships are likely to be the longest relationships of our lives, if we have them. Our relationships with our siblings are a template for the relationships we have with others for the rest of our lives; through them we learn to negotiate, to compromise and what our ‘place’ in the world is. I know not everyone is as lucky as I am; I actually like and love my siblings despite, as well as because of, the fact that we share our genetics, and whilst I wouldn’t characterise our relationship as particularly close, they are still a central part of my life and I consider them often in the decisions I make. I don’t doubt that I am often replicating the role I take with my siblings in my other relationships, and I would be interested in whether my siblings do the same. 

One of the most interesting things they mentioned on the Dear Sugar podcast was that you don’t grow up in the same family as your siblings; whilst it sounds absurd, it is, of course, true. We have individual relationships even within our family, and the same scenario that seems wildly unfair to one sibling is likely to feel just or natural to another. It’s interesting to step outside of your own experience (in my case as the eldest child) to think about what those defining years of childhood might have felt like for the people sharing your home, but not your exact same view. Again, I am lucky that I don’t *think* that my parents favoured any of us in particular (my Mum always says that we are all her favourite children) and actively, in my eyes, discouraged sibling rivalry. My siblings and I are all quite different in personality, skills and interests, which certainly helps in that regard. 

Either way, it’ll be interesting to see how that dynamic plays out in my little family now – once baby arrives, and maybe when we add siblings to the mix. Are you a quintessential eldest/middle/younger/only child? I’d love to hear your stories, too!  

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On Turning 27

There is nothing remarkable about turning 27. It’s a rather banal number. Not yet 30, and yet certainly not 21. It’s the year you might have to officially start labelling yourself as ‘late 20s’, and also the year that so many rock stars die young. That fact has always made me a little sad, but even more so now that I have reached this age. 27 is at once so grown up and yet it’s no age at all. 

There is a lot on the Internet about how your twenties is a confusing and difficult time; I suspect that is partly because so much of the content on the Internet is dominated by Millennials and this is what we’re living right now. But it is an odd sort of time zone to be occupying; for the first portion of your life, there are clear demarcations of each year. You are either in Year 3 or Year 4. You are either in Primary School or Secondary School. You are doing your GCSEs this year, or your A-Levels, or perhaps moving to University. There are clear goals for each year, even if they are not your own personal goals – finish the year, move up to the next, take on the next challenge as it is presented for you. After University (if you take that path), you are left out to sea, fully free to decide what path you take next – an opportunity that is both thrilling and terrifying, and not one that you are able to ignore. Of course, that continues for the rest of your life, but it is so new and raw in your early twenties, with little sense of yourself or of the world (but thinking, of course, that you know both of those things pretty darn well indeed). If I compare myself now to the person I was at 21, it almost makes me laugh – and I’m sure I will do the same again in another six years. 

I am pleased with how my life has turned out (such as it is so far). For all the articles on how difficult being in your twenties are, there are as many (if not more) decrying the ‘traditional’ life; ignore marriage, babies, houses, they say – travel the world, take chances, don’t get tied down. There is merit in that, of course, and I would never want anyone to think that there is one true life course to take – variety is the spice of life, of course, and in a troubling economic and political climate, those things may not be wise or accessible to many, or even wanted. But in the mix of all that, I think it’s easy to forget that there is some merit in that more traditional way of living, and I have been glad to have the opportunity to do so. It is nice, at 27, to feel relatively settled – even as our entire world is about to be turned upside down. Strong foundations, and all that. I have been lucky, that much is certain, but I am also proud of the life and the home that I have built for myself – I couldn’t have imagined this for myself at 21 (even though everything now has been built on the things I had then). 

27 is going to be the year that everything changes for me. Every year until now has been made up of slow, plodding progress, as life tends to be. There are very few times in life when things are shaken up entirely, and I’m pretty sure that having a baby is just one of those times. All being well, I will become a mother in July, and there is no turning back from that. I will never not be one ever again – even as I could shed all of my other identities, should I so wish. It is, like the moment you leave University, thrilling and terrifying all at once. The best is yet to come. 27? Let’s do this. 

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New Year’s Resolutions

So, here we are. 2017. It feels like it’s been a long time coming but I’m glad that we made it. This year will mark my 10 year anniversary of ‘blogging’ in one form or another; a hobby that has changed my life in so many ways. Without blogging I wouldn’t have my Masters degree, my job in Leeds, or my husband, as well as a whole host of online friends and interests that have come from hanging out online for years. It’s funny to think about that, really. How different my life would be. And, whilst, it’s not a resolution as such, I would like to blog more regularly this year. I go through spurts where I’m inspired and I have the time to spare for this little space, but then it all goes awry as it did so spectacularly at the end of last year (although it was for good reasons that it went awry – but hosting five sets of guests in four weeks doesn’t leave much time for tapping out thoughts here). This is a constant goal of mine, and one I am trying not to beat myself up for constantly failing – but with January looking at least a little quieter than December I’m hoping to start off on a good footing. 

In the few short years that I have been making resolutions, I have found that it is much easier to stick to goals and challenges when they add something to my life, rather than take it away. Reading 100 books in 2015 changed my life, although in a small way, and it was a resolution that, whilst tricky at times, added joy and relaxation to my life – so why wouldn’t I want to do it? Resolutions that have been more about subtracting things, particularly vague ‘healthy eating’ ones, have fallen at the first hurdle because they’re just not really any fun – particularly in January, the most joyless month of all. Which is why I love Rachel’s 2016 resolution to make use of her extensive cookbook collection by cooking a new recipe every week – and I’ll definitely be trying to do something similar (although it may be more like fortnightly than weekly). I’ve been neglecting baking, in particular, over the past couple of months, and we’ve got into a bit of a meal planning rut so I’m hoping a little inspiration from my cookbook stash will put paid to those issues. 

There are so many little things I’d like to achieve this year. Sorting the last few bits of house renovation. Buying some cushions. Maybe trying out some new knitting patterns. Baking more bread. Getting outside more. Going on a proper holiday. But none of them feel big enough for resolutions. I guess they’re all just part of an overarching life resolution of making the most of things, and not wasting time (unless wasting time is exactly what you plan to do). And I guess you can’t argue with that one. 

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Delight

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[Photo by Luca Upper]

Melted cheese, in all its forms. Really, really cold white wine. Perfectly ripe raspberries. Hot buttered toast. Hot buttered crumpets. Really, anything that’s hot and buttered. A pile of mussels cooked in white wine with salty chips to dip in the sauce. Preferably to be eaten close to the sea. Crispy roast potatoes. A really fudgy brownie. The crack when you tap your spoon on top of a perfectly cooked creme caramel.

The true, gurgly laughter of young children. The true, raucous laughter of adults. 

Tiny baby socks and tiny baby toes. Giant puppy paws and giant puppy licks. 

Bubble baths on a cosy winter night. Showers after a long summer day.  

An unopened book. The smell of new books. The smell of old books. A finished book that stays with you for a long time. A book passed to a friend because you know they’ll love it. The text message they send you when they’re at the cliffhanger and know you’re the only one who will understand their pain. Buying books as gifts. Receiving books as gifts. Discussing books for hours on end. Bookshops. 

Cheesy 90s and 00s pop music on the radio at work.

The moment you first turn on the heating in autumn. The moment when you turn the heating off for good in summer. 

A bed made with freshly laundered sheets; ones that have been dried on the line so they smell a bit like softener and a bit like fresh air. 

Those nights with friends that you know you’ll remember forever. Those moments with family when you realise that you have the very best family, no matter that everyone else says the same. When friends become family, and you make plans for your lives together as if you were all just one giant married couple. 

Baking a pie. Baking brownies. Decorating a cake. 

When bus drivers wave to each other as they pass each other on the road. 

When you get to the bus stop at exactly the right time so you don’t have to wait but you don’t miss the bus. 

An Old Fashioned that is orange-y enough to take out the sting of the bourbon, but not completely. A cold gin & tonic on a warm summer’s day, but only when shared with friends. The bitterness of an Aperol Spritz and the sweetness of a glass of Pimm’s. The fruit you fish out of your glass of Pimm’s when you think no one is looking. Spaghetti aglio olio. Fish & chips by the beach, with liberal amounts of vinegar. Really good pizza. Really dirty pizza. 

Realising you really live somewhere when you can’t go to the shops without spotting someone that you know. 

Getting proper post. Writing letters. Sending cards. 

Writing in a brand new notebook using my best pen and my best handwriting. 

Roof gardens. Roof gardens with a view. Roof gardens with a view over Manhattan, in particular. Briggate on a Friday night. Roundhay Park when the sun is shining (especially when there are lots of dog-walkers about). The Mustard Pot on a summer afternoon or a winter’s evening. Chapel Allerton on Saturday morning. Leeds Town Hall lit up at night. Spotting the Candle House from the train and knowing you are so close to home. The ‘nearly home’ bridge on the way to my grandparents’ house. My aunt’s kitchen. My best friend’s childhood bedroom.  Yorkshire villages. Yorkshire countryside. 

Spotting a woman who is dressed outlandishly but so well you can’t help but grin and wish for some of her pizazz. 

People who are passionate about a really niche subject that I have no interest in. 

Twitter, when it’s at its very best. 

Fluffy peonies. Roses that actually smell like roses. Very bright daffodils. 

A really good sunset. 

Inspired by The Dolly Mail

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Creating Not Consuming

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[Photo by Beauty Cocktails Girltalk

I’ve been thinking a lot about the relationship between creation and consumption recently. I am a big consumer. I check my phone constantly throughout the day, I read as many articles online as I can manage. I’m easily distracted by videos, blog posts, Instagram photos. You name it, I’ve probably already seen it on Twitter. The Internet has brought so many wonderful things into my life and shaped so many of my ideas and interests. But so much consumption is getting the way of my creativity and creation. I’ve always got my head away from my own work, scouting out the competition. If comparison is the thief of joy, then consumption is the thief of time, energy and productivity. 

I’m so busy feeding my FOMO, and for what purpose? I’ve read enough of the Internet to realise that I’m not going to stumble across a think piece that’s going to change my life in any real sense. You can read as much as you like about inspiration, motivation and getting shit done but still not be able to write a bestseller or complete a creative project. I think that’s what I’m searching for with my endless scrolling of the Internet: the magical tips and tricks that will give me a better life and make my creative work better, without actually putting in the time to make it happen in reality. But I know as well as you that you have to do the work and grind out the hours to make anything of real worth. 

It’s not as if I’m neglecting my life in favour of articles about Millennial habits and Parks & Rec gifs, but my ratio between creation and consumption has been tipping too far to the latter side recently. Consumption is an important part of creativity. The inspiration and instruction you get from consuming others’ work in your field can be a vital part of the process. I am a better blogger for observing how others are doing things, and trying out ideas on my own. That’s the crux of it. I’m not a better blogger simply because of the observation, but because of the trying and the doing. And I know I have less motivation for the trying and the doing when my head is so full with others’ ideas. 

 

I’ve got a lot of projects on the back burner. I am constantly keeping lots of ideas warm. Sometimes they come to fruition. Sometimes they fall by the wayside. That’s just the creative process. But I need to make more space for actual work.I need space to let my own ideas live.  You can only find out which ideas are best through the doing, not the planning. You can only improve and create something worthwhile through doing it over and over again. Through actually creating, not just consuming. 

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The Kind of Woman I Want To Be

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The kind who laughs generously. 

The kind that has skills and hobbies that surprise you. 

The kind that keeps pouring after you say ‘stop’ because anything less than full glass is a waste. 

The kind whose door is always open to friends, and family, and family friends, and friends’ family. 

The kind who always has clean sheets in the cupboard in case you want to stay… 

… and Prosecco in the fridge for if you want to celebrate. 

The kind that doesn’t mind leaving the washing up until the next day. 

The kind that piles your plate high and insists on seconds. 

The kind that is as good at listening as at talking (I’m working on this one…). 

The kind that takes you seriously but is never too serious. 

The kind that remembers birthdays without the help of Facebook. 

The kind who always has a book in her bag. And one you absolutely *must* read to hand. 

The kind that only offers advice when it is asked for, and never when it’s not. 

The kind whose recommendation and word you can trust. 

The kind who insists you show off, and never accuses you of ‘seeking attention’. 

The kind who cooks with wine. 

The kind who always thinks the best of you. 

The kind who always wants to look at your wedding photos, baby photos, holiday photos. 

The kind who never sends a passive aggressive text. 

The kind whose home is pretty but who never makes you take off your shoes when you come to visit. 

The kind who will lend you her favourite dress or her designer handbag (God willing) and tell you it’s better on you anyway. 

The kind who will babysit and dog-sit and cat-sit and housesit. 

The kind who you can trust with your house keys and your heart. 

The kind who buoys you up not brings you down. 

The kind who will always be first on the dance floor and never shies away from karaoke. 

The kind who loves generously and expansively and unconditionally. 

That’s the kind of woman I want to be. 

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Why Mrs Weasley is My Literary Hero

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Sometimes I think re-reading books tells us more about ourselves than about the book. Whilst you may stumble across a revelation or a pretty passage that you may have skipped over the first few (hundred) times, the way you feel about the book may actually show you something you never knew about yourself. For me, this revelation came to me whilst re-reading Harry Potter in preparation for seeing The Cursed Child later this week (NBD…). 

Where once Hermione was my ultimate hero – I imagined my own brainy bookworm nature translating into heroism – now, I realise, that I have changed. Mrs Weasley is now the one I watch for, lingering over the passages that contain her. Don’t get me wrong, I still have all the love for Hermione and her feistiness, her sense of justice and the way that she solves basically all the problems of the books. But I no longer see the story through her eyes. It’s the eyes of Mrs Weasley – or someone like her – that reads the books now; I balk at how children are placed into the line of battle, worry for their safety and know far too much of what is to come for my own good. 

I will never not bawl my eyes out at the scene where Mrs Weasley faces the Boggart at Number 12 Grimmauld Place, as it shows her in turn her family and loved ones slain by the battle that they must wage. And yet, she never falters. She is the first to sign up, giving her life in service to the pursuit of good without question. At times she seems overbearing, but the more information is revealed, the more she seems justified in her ‘nagging’. She won’t sit down and be quiet, and whilst her kids (and husband) might roll their eyes, you know they value her fierce love and loyalty. 

I can honestly think of no other literary heroine who I would be happier to emulate some day. She opens her house and heart to everyone who needs it, regardless of who they are. She knits everyone a jumper every Christmas and cooks up a giant feast every night. She will champion your achievements and push you to be better. And she’s also a pretty powerful witch underneath it all. Basically, she’s just the best. The world needs more Mrs Weasleys, please. 

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This Too Shall Pass…

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[Photo by Julia Janeta]

This is maybe the biggest first world problem that I have ever experienced, but let it be known that house renovation is no fun at all. When we were waiting for the keys, I would spend hours imagining what everything would be like once we had finished. There was no denying the big project in front of us; the carpets were vomit-worthy and there was no kitchen to speak of, but it didn’t quite occur to me just how long that would take. I knew I wouldn’t be sitting in a fully decorated house just a couple of weeks in, but I also didn’t know just how awful it is to live in a house full of brick dust.

We are coming up to the end of our second full week without a kitchen and our first full week of living inside a building site, with a couple of weeks left (at least) before we get any sense of normalcy back. Not including the bathroom refit that needs to be undertaken. Because as soon as we start to fix one thing, another problem presents itself. That is the way with houses, it would appear. 

Of course, this is hardly a real hardship. No one is dying. We are safe and warm and we have food, even if we do have to go to the garage to get it. But it is a massive bummer. Everything is in chaos and I don’t live well in chaos. Tuna, particularly, does not live well in chaos and is most put out that every time she pokes her head out from underneath the bed where she is taking refuge it all looks different again. I feel gross from all the microwave meals and takeaways that I have eaten over the past couple of weeks – I miss freshly cooked vegetables. Like I said, first world problems. But they are my problems nonetheless. 

It’s times like this that I know I need to take solace in my Grandma’s oft-used mantra: This too shall pass. 

For it shall. It’s true of everything, of course. It may be the only true thing that I really know, for sure. Whether it is pain or pleasure, this too shall pass. So endure or enjoy (or both) and know that the only thing that is certain in this life is that things will change. The building work will be done and I will be back to baking pies. The building work will pass and the house will become beautiful. The building work will be done and we will be on to the next challenge, perhaps harking back to this time as an easy, breezy period of life compared to what lies ahead. We cannot be sure, but we can be sure that whatever comes next will pass, too. And so on so on. This too shall pass. 

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10 People Who Make My Internet Better

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The Internet can be a scary place. It has brought me almost everything good in my life, but it also breaks my heart on an almost daily basis. There is a lot of hatred out there and, if you have ever found yourself lost in the comment section of basically any article about women every, it can be easy to feel like the big, bad world is really an awful place. But, the thing is, you can choose your Internet. You can follow the trolls and read the comments and let it get you down Or you can find the good people that make the Internet, and the world, a better place. There are, thankfully, far more of them than the trolls and gremlins would have you believe. Here’s a few of my favourites to get you started: 

Sarah Von Bargen 

I have been following Sarah’s wonderful blog, Yes and Yes, for years. It is a lovely place of positivity and sensible advice and a little bit of silliness in just the right quantities. Want to know more about being a solo lady traveller? Sarah’s got you. Want to read uplifting and inspiring true life stories? Sarah’s got you. Want to see pictures of cats dressed as literary figures? Sarah’s got you. She’s also really wonderful at amplifying and shouting about her awesome Internet friends (like Alexandra Franzen, who has the kind of grace and wisdom that I hope to one day acquire) so her blog and social channels are a really great place to start if you want to make yourself a better Internet. 

Bodyposipanda 

I only discovered Megan and her awesome Instagram recently, thanks to Laura’s awesome Don’t Salt My Game podcast (go and listen!) but I’m already hooked. The clue is in the name, and Megan is all about spreading the body positive message so if you’re feeling a little down then this is a great place to go to get a little bit of pizzazz back. Megan fights diet culture, shares joyful selfies and has awesome purple hair. Is there anything more you need to know? 

Laura Jane Williams

You may have come across Laura’s wonderful blog Superlatively Rude or her new book Becoming but if not, I really urge you to check them out. She is maybe the most honest person on the Internet, and tells her own story in such a raw and open way; her writing is a little bit addictive and her unashamed sharing of her own ‘flaws’ and mistakes will definitely make you feel better about your own struggles. She also has a great podcast with some lovely guests, all with the message that none of us is fucking up the way we think we are. As a bonus, she shares the best links in the morning as commute reads, which I am always saving for later – so if you’re after some good reading material then definitely check out Laura’s Twitter account

Elliot Wake 

Elliot describes himself as ‘a queer biracial trans man who writes books & lifts weights & loves humans of all genders’ and I don’t think I need to give any further introduction. His books are brilliant and well worth checking out if you like dark, twisted, queer fiction (which I very much do), but it’s really Elliot’s Twitter feed that I want to point you in the direction of – because it’s one of my favourites. He’s tweeting about his transition using the hashtag #WakeUpElliot which goes from touching, to informative, to funny to surprising to inspiring. Interspersed with tweets about writing, conversations with his boyfriend and rants about LGBTQ+ issues, his Twitter is definitely something that everyone needs in their life. 

The Guyliner 

Humour with substance, and some excellent gif work. The Guyliner is an anonymous writer who pens excellent Guardian Blind Date takedowns and a great advice column for the Gay Times. His observations about pop culture, celebrity ridiculousness and just daily life always make me laugh. 

Ashley C. Ford 

I am a total Ashley C. Ford fan girl. I will read everything she has ever written and listen to every podcast she appears on because I just love her signature mix of thoughtfulness, gentleness, compassion and humour. She’s also great at sharing brilliant articles and other cool people so she’s another brilliant person to start following if you want to improve your Internet. All the good stuff here, I promise. 

Arched Eyebrow 

If you like fierce and stylish women, which I know you do, then you will love Arched Eyebrow – the fatshion blog and accompanying Twitter and Instagram of Bethany Rutter. Her outfits are always on point, her rants are unapologetic and she is truly a champion of other awesome fat women. Her Internet presence is powerful and colourful and exactly what we need more of in the world. 

Mallory Ortberg 

I find Mallory Ortberg‘s brand of humour so unbelievably funny – she is a highlight of my Twitter feed and my Internet in general. It’s hard to put my finger on but it’s feminist, slightly bizarre, quick-witted and just damn hilarious. The perfect mix of ‘high’ culture and ‘low’ culture. Basically, if you like The Hairpin or The Toast (duh) then you need to be following Mallory. Plus, her Dear Prudence advice column is pretty excellent, too. 

Doug the Pug 

Okay, who doesn’t want to see a pug dressed in a funny outfit? No one, that’s who. Doug the Pug is guaranteed to bring smiles to your day. #puglife

Amanda Nelson 

Amanda is the managing editor of my favourite book-ish site, Book Riot, which is dedicated to diversity in the book world – so you can imagine why following her would be rad. She shares excellent book recommendations, isn’t afraid to call out bullshit she sees in the book world (and the regular world) as well as book news, cool articles and generally fun, funny things. Oh, and she has a parenting newsletter called Madame Ovary, which I am so there for. She’s just a delight, basically. 

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